How I healed myself and learned to put my soul first….
Hi, I’m sonia, and this is my story
I was deep in the grind of parenting two little people.
You may already know what this is like, but if you don’t, it’s the beginning of chaos.
Suddenly I was expected to clean up a nappy blowout and not burn the chicken nuggets all at the same time. There were tantrums times two, mess times two, and broken sleep times two. I felt like I never stopped and had never been more tired, yet looked around the room and saw nothing to show for my exhaustion. I was everything to these children and they were entirely dependent on me for survival. I had this idea in my mind of what I thought my life would be like, and the stark reality felt like a slap across the face.
During this time, my mum got sick. Really sick. Breast cancer was claiming its latest victim and mum needed someone to take care of her during the day. Though she was my mother and I’d do anything for her, the choice to step in and become her daily carer was not one I could make lightly. I was already struggling to manage my own hectic life, but took on the responsibility anyway.
She was with me often and my days revolved around her care. I drove her to appointments, managed her treatment, talked with her, and loved her the best way I could. My two little ones never stopped needing me, so I had no choice but to juggle the care of these three people I loved. The burnout quickly increased, but I felt I had to ignore it. During the day, there was nobody else who could share the load. I continued to carry it on my own.
I became pregnant for a third time. The demands on me were no less, only now, I was caring for an additional person. The fatigue was relentless, but I ignored it and pressed on. I was aware of how much I was struggling, but felt selfish for admitting that I was trying to do too much. There was no time or energy left for myself. I was taking care of everyone else, but felt that nobody was taking care of me.
The day before my scheduled caesarean, my mum passed away.
Looking back, that was a time where I needed to prioritise myself a lot more than I did.
There was little time for grief or heartache. I had two young children and a new baby, and a short 7 months later, I found out I was pregnant with our fourth and final member to our family.
Once my physical self had healed, I was right back into the exhausting juggle of life…
I put everyone and everything else before myself, thinking that, somehow, things would improve on their own. They did not.
Life only got harder and my physical and mental health continued to decline.
My dad had a massive heart attack. His recovery was long and treacherous and the responsibility to care for him fell on all of our shoulders. While I cherish the times we spent together and wouldn’t change them, it was another daily demand on me. He lived with us during his recovery and I cared for him day and night until, eventually, he was well enough to move back home. Even though he was no longer sleeping under our roof, he still required daily check-ins and help.
As time moved forward, I realised something had to give. I’d been operating a successful but demanding business and ended up hitting pause. I had every intention of resuming my role in it at some stage, but life had other plans.
Dad was diagnosed with dementia. We cared for him until his gentle passing. I never did resume my business and, instead, chose to begin my own healing journey.
It was time to put my soul first
It started with daily self-care practices, like meditation and journaling. I was amazed at the powerful impact this had on my health and wellbeing, while feeling the stirrings within me to do more.
I learned Reiki, completed my crystal course, certified as a Crystal Healing Bodyworker, Transpersonal Crystal Healing Practitioner, and became accredited in Usui Reiki levels 1 & 2.
12 – 18 months later, a sharp pain in my right side led me to see my doctor. After seeing the GP and getting some tests done, I found myself in the rooms of a urologist.
He told me that I had a cancerous tumour and needed my right kidney removed urgently.
When I asked him how long a tumour that size takes to grow, his response felt like I’d been punched in the gut. Five years.
For five years I’d been growing a cancerous tumour and I had no idea.
I was incredibly grateful that I’d taken the path toward healing before this life-changing event. I can’t help but feel as though my pull towards healing was preparing me for what was to come.
The surgery and recovery were gruelling, of course. My physical self has changed significantly as I’ve adapted to life with only one kidney. However, the most impactful change has come from deep within.
I had initially turned to reiki and crystals to heal myself.
When I battled cancer and lost my kidney, I experienced these healing powers on an even deeper level. The effects were so incredibly profound that I knew I had to share them with others.
We’re all here walking different paths but experiencing so many similarities. As women, we have divine power within us, yet somehow forget that we’re still only human.
As the renowned writer Jennae Ceclia once said,
“Flowers grow back even after the harshest winters. You will too.”
I truly feel that my life’s purpose is to heal others. My passion for learning and growing continues to feed my soul. I’m here to share my gifts and empower you to become your happiest, most peaceful and joy-filled self.
I’m excited to meet you, heal you, and help you to put your soul first.